What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you? (@Gabriel)

gabrielmeyers:

laurahuntington:

Laura gets suddenly quiet, looking down and scuffing at the dirt with her shoe. “I-I’m sorry. I didn’t think you’d notice. I-” She tilts her head away. Gabe has quickly become her best friend, but she’s still surprised whenever someone worries.

At his last question she feels her eyes sting. This was the last thing she wanted. Just brilliant, she’s blinking tears from her eyes, and she has to clear her throat before mumbling, “Yeah… I’m, erm…” She sighs, turning away from him subconsciously and nodding before whispering, “Jezza left me.”

        Gabriel closed his mouth shut and his eyes widened. “I… Of course I’d notice, you’re one of my mates.” He stepped forward slowly and wrapped his arms around Laura’s shoulders. Gabe gave a soft sigh, “It’s okay, you don’t have to cry.” He knew what it was like to have that happen, it had happened to him in the past a few times before and it took him while to get over it himself. “Just don’t think for one second that I wouldn’t care if you got hurt, okay? I always care about my mates. Always.”

Laura relaxes a bit at the slight hug. “Thanks,” she replies softly. “Believe me, though. I don’t want to…” She shakes her head, turning to pull him into a bit of a hug before saying, “Yeah, well, Jezza did a pretty good job of it. And I’m glad that you do. Probably the only one I can even begin to talk to…” She sighs and nods toward the bench, “Want to join me, then? You could probably use a rest. Did you run all the way here?”

What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you? (@Gabriel)

gabrielmeyers:

laurahuntington:

She’s almost too lost in thought to hear him. But then he hears her say from the bench they chose last time, “Gabe?” 

She’s turned around on the bench the shared last time, holding the lit cigarette like someone who’s only ever half-watched others smoke. Which, technically, she was. “Speak of the devil… What are you doing here?” she asks, dropping it on the bench to go to his side once she sees him. “Are you alright?”

     Gabriel pants once more and stands up straight. “Me? Yeah. But, what the hell are you doing?” He asked gesturing to the cigarette she dropped, “Are you crazy? I mean, I was worried for a minute there!” He opened his mouth a bit in a disbelieving fashion and spread his arms out a bit. “I was just looking for you mate, you weren’t at the flat. Is… is something wrong?”

Laura gets suddenly quiet, looking down and scuffing at the dirt with her shoe. “I-I’m sorry. I didn’t think you’d notice. I-” She tilts her head away. Gabe has quickly become her best friend, but she’s still surprised whenever someone worries.

At his last question she feels her eyes sting. This was the last thing she wanted. Just brilliant, she’s blinking tears from her eyes, and she has to clear her throat before mumbling, “Yeah… I’m, erm…” She sighs, turning away from him subconsciously and nodding before whispering, “Jezza left me.”

What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you? (@Gabriel)

gabrielmeyers:

laurahuntington:

She’s at the lake. Again. She’d somehow managed to pull herself back together after thinking he’d left her, only for him to come back… And break up with her. To take himself out of her life after saying he’d loved her for the second time.

Maybe she was better off alone.

Laura takes out the cigarettes she bought on the way over. She’d never smoked, never cared for it, but supposedly it makes people feel better. And it’s been too long since she’d gotten drunk… With no one to be there for her, it was too risky for her taste. They’re the same brand Gabriel buys, too hurt to have yet another remind her of the man who broke her heart. Again. No time like the present… She lights up and grimaces as she exhales the fumes, somehow managing to keep from coughing up a lung. Feeling nothing, she tries again. Maybe it just takes a bit to effect her…

Maybe she was the problem. Her mum didn’t love her, her Dad left when she was born, and the one guy she thought she might end up spending her life with can’t seem to stick around more than to just say “I love you” and “Good bye”. Well, fuck that. If she was the problem, she’ll just have to find somewhere that she isn’t. Supposedly things were looking up in canada. She certainly couldn’t stay here. The chance of running into Jezza was way too high. And it’s not like she had anyone else to stay for… Mandy would understand, they didn’t talk much anyway; Maddie was probably the same, and with less frequent conversations; Charlie just vanished; and Gabriel….

Gabriel would understand.

But he might actually get a good bye.

     Gabriel had spent a good 3 minutes looking around for a particular item he had in mind. He almost gave up when his living room looked like a crime scene. Gabe huffed, turned, and walked down a hallway with a string of doors. He stopped at the one second to last of the end of the hall and gently knocked on it, “Laura?” He asked beginning to open the door, “Have you seen the-“ He stopped when he saw she wasn’t in the room.  “Laura?” He asked a bit louder.  When he got no response he knit his eyebrows. Where would Laura be right now? He knew she wouldn’t be back at her flat, at least not for right now, and if she wasn’t in his flat where- “Shit.” He muttered under his breath.

The lake.

     With a quick dash, he slipped on his shoes and a coat, opened the door and ran down the stairs towards the direction of the lake. Gabe didn’t even bother getting into his car and driving, that would take too long and make too much noise.  As he was running he notice there wasn’t a small weight in his coat pocket and with a small pat with his hand, it confirmed that his lighter wasn’t there. ‘Damn it, Laura you better not be doing anything stupid.’ 

    As he reached the lake he began to whip his head around, “Laura? Hey, Laura where are you?”  Gabe gave out and heavy sigh and leaned forward to put his hands on his knees.

She’s almost too lost in thought to hear him. But then he hears her say from the bench they chose last time, “Gabe?” 

She’s turned around on the bench the shared last time, holding the lit cigarette like someone who’s only ever half-watched others smoke. Which, technically, she was. “Speak of the devil… What are you doing here?” she asks, dropping it on the bench to go to his side once she sees him. “Are you alright?”

What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you? (@Gabriel)

She’s at the lake. Again. She’d somehow managed to pull herself back together after thinking he’d left her, only for him to come back… And break up with her. To take himself out of her life after saying he’d loved her for the second time.

Maybe she was better off alone.

Laura takes out the cigarettes she bought on the way over. She’d never smoked, never cared for it, but supposedly it makes people feel better. And it’s been too long since she’d gotten drunk… With no one to be there for her, it was too risky for her taste. They’re the same brand Gabriel buys, too hurt to have yet another remind her of the man who broke her heart. Again. No time like the present… She lights up and grimaces as she exhales the fumes, somehow managing to keep from coughing up a lung. Feeling nothing, she tries again. Maybe it just takes a bit to effect her…

Maybe she was the problem. Her mum didn’t love her, her Dad left when she was born, and the one guy she thought she might end up spending her life with can’t seem to stick around more than to just say “I love you” and “Good bye”. Well, fuck that. If she was the problem, she’ll just have to find somewhere that she isn’t. Supposedly things were looking up in canada. She certainly couldn’t stay here. The chance of running into Jezza was way too high. And it’s not like she had anyone else to stay for… Mandy would understand, they didn’t talk much anyway; Maddie was probably the same, and with less frequent conversations; Charlie just vanished; and Gabriel….

Gabriel would understand.

But he might actually get a good bye.

jezzacollins:

laurahuntington:

Jezza… You seriously can’t get it can you? 

You gave me back the best times of my life, and then we started to make more memories like that. Every day started to be like that, and I thought I couldn’t get any luckier. Now if you’re back to being you, nobody could be better. Please, just…. 
Please, don’t take all that away, not again. 

Laura, I’m sorry. I can’t. It’s… it’s over.

Have a fantastic life.

No… NO! 

Please, Jezza, please, not again!

….

I c-can’t… I can’t s-stay here. I, fuck…

I’ve got to go. 

jezzacollins:

laurahuntington:

jezzacollins:

laurahuntington:

jezzacollins:

Oh, Laura… I… I’m sorry. I’m so, so sorry… perhaps… perhaps you should stay there for a bit. I… He took good care of you, and… you deserve that.

No! I… I mean…

I don’t mean he didn’t, he’s a great friend, and yeah, he’s nice… 

But I missed you. It… Thinking you didn’t… I didn’t know what I was gonna do. 
I mean… Unless you’d rather I’d stayed? If y-you don’t want that, yet, I’d understand… 

I missed you, too… I did, so very much, but… I love you and how I’ve been treating you is… it isn’t right, and it isn’t a good thing. I… You deserve to move on from me and I’ve held you back for far to long.

But… You just…

No. No, I’m not gonna let you do this to me again! You’re so thick! 
You just said that you’re back and better than ever. Yeah, no it wasn’t right. We all make stupid mistakes, but you got help. Even if you had to leave me behind to get it.

You probably should have said, but that’s done. Yes, thinking you didn’t love me broke me. I only agreed to go back with Gabe because he was possibly the only one left who cared, and he gave me something to hold on to. I honestly would’ve left the island for god knows where had he not found me. But I only broke down the way I did because I love you. I spent the entire time here wondering what the hell I’m gonna do with my life cause I couldn’t bring myself to face work, I’d just gone from have the worst time of my life to getting back the memories of the love of my life, and living with him, only to have all of that vanish. I don’t think you quite get it, though.

You’re not holding me back, love. You’re holding me up.
So— if you really love me— then don’t you dare leave me again.  

He’s better than me, Laura… and you deserve better. I do love you, but… You need him. You don’t need me anymore. I’m sorry. Leave me behind and, please, move on.

Jezza… You seriously can’t get it can you? 

You gave me back the best times of my life, and then we started to make more memories like that. Every day started to be like that, and I thought I couldn’t get any luckier. Now if you’re back to being you, nobody could be better. Please, just…. 
Please, don’t take all that away, not again. 

If anyone asks, I didn’t do anything.

gabrielmeyers:

laurahuntington:

Brilliant! Means I get to surprise you, then. Do you have, like, biscuits or something? It’ll probably be ready when you’ve cleaned up a bit and changed.
 

What kind of flat doesn’t have biscuits? They’re in the kitchen somewhere but I do have them!

Haha, alright. I’ll go look, you clean up. Meet back in, I dunno, maybe ten minutes? Think you’ll be done by then?

jezzacollins:

laurahuntington:

jezzacollins:

Oh, Laura… I… I’m sorry. I’m so, so sorry… perhaps… perhaps you should stay there for a bit. I… He took good care of you, and… you deserve that.

No! I… I mean…

I don’t mean he didn’t, he’s a great friend, and yeah, he’s nice… 

But I missed you. It… Thinking you didn’t… I didn’t know what I was gonna do. 
I mean… Unless you’d rather I’d stayed? If y-you don’t want that, yet, I’d understand… 

I missed you, too… I did, so very much, but… I love you and how I’ve been treating you is… it isn’t right, and it isn’t a good thing. I… You deserve to move on from me and I’ve held you back for far to long.

But… You just…

No. No, I’m not gonna let you do this to me again! You’re so thick! 
You just said that you’re back and better than ever. Yeah, no it wasn’t right. We all make stupid mistakes, but you got help. Even if you had to leave me behind to get it.

You probably should have said, but that’s done. Yes, thinking you didn’t love me broke me. I only agreed to go back with Gabe because he was possibly the only one left who cared, and he gave me something to hold on to. I honestly would’ve left the island for god knows where had he not found me. But I only broke down the way I did because I love you. I spent the entire time here wondering what the hell I’m gonna do with my life cause I couldn’t bring myself to face work, I’d just gone from have the worst time of my life to getting back the memories of the love of my life, and living with him, only to have all of that vanish. I don’t think you quite get it, though.

You’re not holding me back, love. You’re holding me up.
So— if you really love me— then don’t you dare leave me again.  

jezzacollins:

laurahuntington:

jezzacollins:

Just got back this morning, actually. Long flight, so I’m a bit knackered.

I’d say to go home and rest, that I’d set some tea waiting but, erm…

Well…

I sort of ran away again, so I’ve not been home. I’m sorry if the place is a bit dusty… 

Gabe found me and convinced me to stay with him until I got back on my feet, so… 

Yeah. I guess that explains why you didn’t come looking, though.

Oh, Laura… I… I’m sorry. I’m so, so sorry… perhaps… perhaps you should stay there for a bit. I… He took good care of you, and… you deserve that.

No! I… I mean…

I don’t mean he didn’t, he’s a great friend, and yeah, he’s nice… 

But I missed you. It… Thinking you didn’t… I didn’t know what I was gonna do. 
I mean… Unless you’d rather I’d stayed? If y-you don’t want that, yet, I’d understand… 

If anyone asks, I didn’t do anything.

gabrielmeyers:

laurahuntington:

Ah, good. Means I did alright then~ And yep, like I said: if you like it, do as you will with it. 

Oh! I should probably ask what sort of tea you want, actually. What’s your poison, then?

Any kind of tea is fine really, I like all of them surprisingly! 

Brilliant! Means I get to surprise you, then. Do you have, like, biscuits or something? It’ll probably be ready when you’ve cleaned up a bit and changed.
 

jezzacollins:

laurahuntington:

jezzacollins:

laurahuntington:

jezzacollins:

No…. no, not that. No, I could never… Laura, I love you. I did… I did something so stupid. I did a lot of stupid things. I don’t deserve  you, I really don’t and…you don’t deserve somebody like me. You should have so much more…

Oh, Jezza…

I love you, too.

I was just stupid for thinking that. I should’ve asked, tried to help, something… You don’t deserve me only cause you can do better. I’m sorry, I was just… I dunno. Are you better, now, then?

No, no, I… I didn’t want you anywhere near me how I was… I hurt people and I didn’t want to hurt you. I’m better now, yes. Back to myself, all me again. Back and better than ever if I do say so myself. Not to brag or anything

That’s good! Great, even…

And er, how long have you been back?
 

Just got back this morning, actually. Long flight, so I’m a bit knackered.

I’d say to go home and rest, that I’d set some tea waiting but, erm…

Well…

I sort of ran away again, so I’ve not been home. I’m sorry if the place is a bit dusty… 

Gabe found me and convinced me to stay with him until I got back on my feet, so… 

Yeah. I guess that explains why you didn’t come looking, though.

jezzacollins:

laurahuntington:

jezzacollins:

No…. no, not that. No, I could never… Laura, I love you. I did… I did something so stupid. I did a lot of stupid things. I don’t deserve  you, I really don’t and…you don’t deserve somebody like me. You should have so much more…

Oh, Jezza…

I love you, too.

I was just stupid for thinking that. I should’ve asked, tried to help, something… You don’t deserve me only cause you can do better. I’m sorry, I was just… I dunno. Are you better, now, then?

No, no, I… I didn’t want you anywhere near me how I was… I hurt people and I didn’t want to hurt you. I’m better now, yes. Back to myself, all me again. Back and better than ever if I do say so myself. Not to brag or anything

That’s good! Great, even…

And er, how long have you been back?
 

If anyone asks, I didn’t do anything.

gabrielmeyers:

laurahuntington:

Ah, not too bad. Did some sketches at the lake and threw out some lousy doodles. Well, made them into Papier Maché. You now have a key or candy dish, if you’d like to keep it. 

And yeah. It was an… Interesting arrangement, I will say that~

Really? So that’s what that was! It’s a lovely little dish. Fits right in with all the papers up on the walls.

Ah, good. Means I did alright then~ And yep, like I said: if you like it, do as you will with it. 

Oh! I should probably ask what sort of tea you want, actually. What’s your poison, then?
 

jezzacollins:

laurahuntington:

jezzacollins:

I… I wasn’t myself, Laura. I’m so, so sorry… the things I did… I’m not proud of. I’m honestly surprised you’re still talking to me after I just… just left. I… I’m sorry. I’m so, so very sorry. You didn’t deserve that and I just… I wasn’t thinking. I couldn’t think.

No, I wan’t… There. I let you push me away, and… I dunno. I guess I thought… Maybe… 

Maybe you didn’t want me. ‘Cause I’m not… I’m not like you remembered.

No…. no, not that. No, I could never… Laura, I love you. I did… I did something so stupid. I did a lot of stupid things. I don’t deserve  you, I really don’t and…you don’t deserve somebody like me. You should have so much more…

Oh, Jezza…

I love you, too.

I was just stupid for thinking that. I should’ve asked, tried to help, something… You don’t deserve me only cause you can do better. I’m sorry, I was just… I dunno. Are you better, now, then?

If anyone asks, I didn’t do anything.

gabrielmeyers:

laurahuntington:

Haha, brilliant. Wish I had you as a flatmate in college. 3 girls and a guy, none of us could cook. And thanks~! Had to learn to make something, right? Otherwise I’d end up saying, well…

So. Should I ask how your day went~?

Sounds like one hell of a ride! Well, if you can at least make tea you sound like a good flatmate to me. Ah, well. You can see how my day went from how I look! How has yours been?

Ah, not too bad. Did some sketches at the lake and threw out some lousy doodles. Well, made them into Papier Maché. You now have a key or candy dish, if you’d like to keep it. 

And yeah. It was an… Interesting arrangement, I will say that~